Lucky Lady

Well, I had a rare opportunity last night that most woman don't get. I got to go on a date with TWO boys! That's right TWO!


I'm a lucky lady, both of them were very charming, flirtatious, and perfect gentlemen-well, one of them did spill applesauce all over himself at dinner but accidents happen right?!?

First the boys picked me up all dressed up and nice. Took me to a delicious dinner, and they even paid!



Afterwards we went to Hollywood Connection where our movie was playing and one of my dates had the opportunity to ride some of the attractions such as the train "choo-choo" and the swings and of course the most magical part of the evening The Carousel. Awwww!


So, with my bag stuffed with goodies, we headed in to get prime seats for our movie "WAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL-E". Both of my dates we're awesome and occasionally one of them would hold my hand-they took turns.
But, honestly my heart just busted with joy last night, it was just so much fun, Caden did great! I love being able to do more things with him. Family dates are great and you don't have to pay for a babysitter!

This is a face of a boy who had the best date of his life!

So Much Love

July 2007


It's amazing how time flies, my little man, which I've always referred to Caden as, is growing up so fast. I thought I'd do a quick update on this little guy:

Age: 2.5 years old
General: He loves to run, play,drink milk, wrestle with Daddy
Music: His favorite jam's right now are ACDC "Back in Black" And most recently George Michael "Faith"
Movies: Surf's Up which he refers to as "Penguins" and Monters Inc "Monsters"
Television: American Gladiators- he gets very agressive when this on. Wipeout-The whole time he says "big balls, big balls". He doesn't really watch any other TV
Books: "You are Special" is a book about people giving out stars and dots. Its probably the sweetest and most meaningful book we have and probably the longest, but he loves it.
Favorite Saying: "Oh my GOSH!"
Heroes: Mom and Dad of course...well, and Thomas and Buzz!

I love this little man, I know I gripe about him sometimes but trust me sometimes he acts his age, and woah it can get intense. But for the most part he's a pretty enjoyable kid, who I look more towards as a little friend of mine.



July 2008

Corn Hole'n Champion

WE had a blast in Iowa. WE hung out with family. Went Camping, had smore's played a boat load of Corn Hole( for those that don't know it's probably one of the best games ever). And on Saturday we had a championship game, it was intense and long and guess what Rick and I won! That's right sukers we won!
Anyways, we had a great time with the family. And we met Jon's girlfriend Shauna who was way adorable, and they are just so stinkin' cute together. Caden wouldn't do bubbles without the girl.
We went on a date-shopped, dinner and movie(hancock- it was hillarious)
Anyways, it was great, Im sure I'm forgetting many details, but it's the pictures you care about right?!?


Caden and Grandma riding "Percy" his favorite

Caden's way of Camping

Caden rockin' the sparkler

Caden working out with Daddy-so cute!

Rick, Coleen, and Amy

Writing it down is therapeutic...

When I started to write it down before I lost it on my computer. AWESOME!
I've always heard the word 'grieve' when people miscarried, and that always seemed like such a heavy word for them to use. Not to discredit those loosing a child and such. But, now experiencing losing our two little babies there is no better word in the entire vocabulary better then that.

I have felt many emotions since last week, heartbroken, desperately sad, angry, and numb. I don’t know what to feel anymore. I've realized that it is done, all over with and there is no longer anything I can do. I'm try to not to think about them to much, because if I continued to, nothing would get done-shower, cleaning; important things. But truthfully it's hard. I'm so used to thinking like I'm pregnant, I go to a store and I instantly want to browse the clearance maternity and then I have to kick myself for thinking that, control my emotions and try and not break down in the store again, and pick my self back up. Then I'll see my stupid giant bottle of TUMS I bought because I always have the worst heartburn when pregnant, and I instantly want to throw it through the window-hence the word ANGER.

We are getting better and getting through it. One thing that I am entirely grateful for is the timing of this tragic event, I know this seems minute but I'm reaching for positives right now, and that is it happened when we were back in GA, had a great vacation in Iowa. I could not have imagined us finding out before; it would have made it horrible for Eric and I. And it a way as hard as it is having Eric in total control (Means they've picked up a new group of privates and work 7days a week 4am-8pm) is that I have to take care of Caden, myself and our home.

Eric was and has been so amazing through this. He is such a nurture her and a sweet heart. I know he is battling the same emotional battle I am and he just took over and took care of Caden and I. It brings me to tears thinking of how wonderful he's been and how terribly sad he is also. I appreciate those calling asking not only if I was okay but if Eric was, all though it happened physically to me, it's very much the same thing emotionally for Eric.

I think I have rambled enough, but I wanted to thank you all for keeping us in your prayers and thoughts! We will get through this, after time.

For those that know and for those that don't

Today has truly been a whirlwind. I don't have it in me to call everyone, so this is for all those out there.
Some of you may know we were pregnant-some may not, I was wanting to wait a couple more weeks to post about it.
And some may know that we were blessed with twins- so exciting, but so scary! And quite the rarity for my large family.

And now we have found that we have lost them both. To say the least our hearts our broken! WE know that this is only temporary pain and that our Heavenly Fathers loves us and will comfort us, but at the time we are just trying to deal with it.

We will be going to hospital tomorrow for a D&C and then try to move on as best as we can.

So I am sorry I have not called you all individually but it is just too much right now.